The Art of Starting (Without Chasing)

I have no idea how to start this. And the irony isn’t lost on me—because I’ve thought a lot about where to start.

The truth is, I’m tired of repeating myself. Tired of reintroducing myself. Every time I try, it feels like a broken record… or a scratched CD (showing my age a little) playing the same sound over and over again.

BORING and annoying!

The first part is always the same: Speak the truth. Be real with people.The second part follows right behind it: I don’t chase attraction. I’ve placed a boundary around that. I am who and what I am in each moment. I am the attraction. And maybe that’s why it’s taken me so long to start this.

There’s this ongoing debate in my head—hello, impostor syndrome—that whispers: It’s not ready yet. It’s not enough. It’s not what people want to hear or see.

But over the past few months, I keep getting nudged. Pushed, really.

Just do it.Just start.

You know that saying, “The hardest part about reaching a goal is starting”? That’s been me for the past couple of years. But here’s the twist: I’m actually really good at starting things.

I have workshops. Worksheets. Cheat sheets. Creations stacked on creations.

My real obstacle?Putting it out there.

So maybe this is my start.

How do I start putting it out there? When do I start putting it out there? What’s the right way to start—one that still honors me? I know my why. That part is clear. It’s the other question words that overwhelm me.

If you know me, you know I’m a geek—okay, a passionate person—when it comes to Human Design and Gene Keys. My Ajna center is completely open, which means my awareness is sharp. Sometimes too sharp.

I’m still learning how to manage that awareness so it doesn’t keep me from starting.

Because when it does, I go straight into my head. I can live up there if I’m not careful. Overthinking, analyzing, waiting for the perfect alignment.

It’s a vicious cycle.

Eventually, I let it go and wait for the opportunity to present itself. And most of the time—it does.

Do I listen? Yes… and no.

The yes: I only share when someone is actively seeking it from me. They have to ask. Or suggest. Or open the door first.

The no: I give them what they are seeking and  leave it there. I don’t follow through. I don’t extend the invitation any further. Maybe I am hoping they will extend an olive branch and do the network for me because I have yet learned how to put it out there. 

So this—this right here—is me STARTING to put me out there.

You might be wondering what exactly I’m putting out there.

If I’m being honest, I didn’t know when I first started writing this. But as I kept going, it became clear: I’m putting myself out there. My thoughts. My process. My truth—unfinished and unpolished. Maybe, just maybe if I put my foot out to the world the rest will follow.

If this moment were a tarot card, it would be The Fool. A leap of faith. Trusting the process without needing the full map.

Maybe the first step of starting isn’t clarity. Maybe it’s courage.

So I’ll leave you with this:

What’s your START obstacle?